A Mother’s Calming Way
The other day I signed up for a class called “Yoga For Moms”. I thought to myself, “I’m a mom, and I like practicing yoga.”. So I went. When I arrived I realized that I had signed up for a pre-natal yoga class. Feeling just a little silly, I decided to stay. I wanted a relaxing, non-aggressive class and now I was sure that was exactly what I’d signed up for.
The teacher asked us each to introduce ourselves and state if there was anything specific we had in mind to work on in terms of the practice that day. When my turn came, I stated my name, and I immediately revealed that I was in fact not pregnant, but that I was in fact a “mom” and I was looking for a relaxing class, and hence, here I was. The other ladies with their bountiful and beautiful bellies, smiled and were welcoming . The class commenced.
Being a yoga teacher myself, and having taught my share of pregnant women, I was so happy to be in the room with the angels. Babies are completely connected to the source and because of this, they are full of power and grace. That’s why what happened next was not a surprise.
As someone who has worked through my body to heal and has released so much tension caused by so many buried emotions, I was in my usual space of communing completely with my physical self. I was in child’s pose and I felt a beautiful release of my muscles that allowed for some space that I had never known before. I also realized in that moment that the space opening up to me had been missing since infancy. Of course child’s pose, coupled with the energy of these ethereal beings was the perfect formula for this magical healing. On the mat, the memory of being an infant, and being upset came over me, and then the beautiful release that I know these angels afforded me. In that moment, I was allowed to confront the fact that although my mother tried to comfort me, her body was so full of tension that my body could not relax. Once I knew something was bubbling up, I pictured my mother exhaling and calming herself. I imagined her body releasing the tension she was unaware of as she held and tried to comfort me as a baby and young child. I imagined her breathing out, and in doing so, I then was for the first time, able to imagine her body relaxing so that I too could relax. Some sadness released in me that day, and some anger. The anger of not fully knowing comfort. It was profound, as all emotional breakthroughs are, and I was able to find a new openness and a new way of being.
We never imagine that our bodies are holding the memory of our mother’s bodies, but it makes perfect sense. Those angels and the power of yoga, provided me with the perfect environment to take another step towards the comfort and relaxation that allows for love.
I am grateful and continue to be amazed by the power of the universe to lay down the unexpected moments that always holds the exact opportunity I need to move forward. Yoga allows us to bypass the intellect and discover what our bodies know. Without this information, we can never fully heal.
Namaste
This Emotional Life 