and they explain it better than I ever could!
I now see my trauma so clearly. It doesn’t make me depressed, it makes me realize how much of my life I sacrificed to trauma. It’s just such a deep realization. I see flashes of my past in front of me and I know why I made certain choices and have done the things I did in my life that used to haunt me. It is so unsettling, because the past is experienced and the future is not. And I know and believe that I am freeing myself because I see the past so clearly, and I can have hope that the future will not be a replica of the past. I need faith and belief, two things I was never wired to have unless my survival is threatened. So I choose to believe that I’m on my way. I will need faith and the reminder that when my traumatized self shows up, I will not let it tell me I’m not good enough.
To which I replied.
“When one starts on a path in therapy, which is essentially a healing of the human that allows the soul to fill us, when that happens, we awaken as the days and months go by, in ways we never could have imagined. Because of the teacher/therapist, the student has willingly stepped onto the path and so the soul joins hands with the human and delivers signs and thoughts and guidance in the most mysterious yet obvious ways. Once on the path you cannot step off, nor would you wish to for with each painful breaking down, with real growth, you become more and more yourself. But most of all you have reconnected with love as well as the trauma and your faith becomes stronger because of this power. At the end of the day, all good comes from love.
This Emotional Life 